I knew from the beginning I never had a chance. I know how I feel. I wish I can go back to not feeling anything at all. How did you shine a light into the darkest part of my heart? I know what you said, and I know it can never be. But I will disappear when that day comes. Not because I am angry, not because I do not want to you in my life, because I am not strong enough. Your happiness means a lot to me. And I can’t let you see me fall back into the darkness, because you deserve to smile and laugh every single second.